Happiness right now, for me especially during these cold, winter nights, is taking the time to nourish and feed myself with love when it truly matters. Knowing when to slow down, assess where you are and how you are physiologically. Knowing when to take stock to see if you need to rest, to relax and soothe your stressed out body and mind.
This is where I am right now. Making time for self love. Being honest enough with myself to know I need to just stop and just be. Having felt crap (let’s face it no other word somes me up right now better than that) for a while now, I know I need to take better care of myself. When I do I feel brighter, more capable and ultimately happier in myself.
That’s what it comes down to. Ensuring we are treating ourselves with care and love, so we can be the best versions of ourselves. And that’s not to say to hide the things we don’t like about ourselves, but more about having clarity in present situations. Being mindful of our day to day lives and knowing that it’s okay to loosen the reigns we hold so tightly.
So for me this weekend is about self love.
Today, as I walked home from work, I had a sudden moment of joy. Joy in what I do not just for work but for pleasure too. It was strange. I suddenly felt like everything was okay. That those feelings you get at this time of the year, were just passing thoughts and emotions. Not ones I should act upon, but merely reflect on and accept them then finally let them go. I suppose this is what I did this evening.
Sometimes we have moments where we question whether we have made the right choices in life. Especially when it comes to what we choose to do in our working life. I had one such moment like this. I believe this is a natural and human thing to do. It is only natural to feel like we need a new beginning as we come to the end of another year. I believe most people will have thoughts similar to this. It is important to question and check whether we are making the right choices for ourselves, not because we feel we might let someone down. Our happiness is what should drive our choices in life.
And today everything felt, well, normal. Like it was always meant to feel like this. It was truly wonderful to feel certain in my choices and that I am doing something I feel is meaningful and worthwhile. I wanted to cherish that moment for as long as possible. I almost stopped to stand and just be in the feeling of contentment. But as we come to find with all feelings and emotions they rarely last. However, I have a sneaky feeling I will be able to draw upon how I felt today at a later stage, and remind myself that I am on the right path.
Well, here we are. Another year coming to an end. And with this comes a time for reflection. Reflecting on past events, mistakes, choices that took us down a path we didn’t know existed. We say goodbye to old habits and begin to find meaning in new ventures and opportunities. Ultimately, we use this chance to begin afresh. Beginning life with a clean slate and vowing to commit ourselves to building a better, more fruitful life. Who doesn’t like being able to reinvent themselves?
Whilst it may be easy to wash old negatives feelings off and strive for a better future, we must not forget to examine where we are right now. This precious moment of now. Not months past but where we find ourselves to be now. We are quick to think of what we didn’t achieve or the things we missed out on, or just the inevitable feelings of failure. It is much harder to think of how we have succeed and saying out loud – ‘I have done myself proud this year’. Why can’t we just be happy with what we have now? The pressure to be continually striving and searching for something…more, can be exhusting. When those things don’t arise for whatever reasons, we are deflated and defeated. I want to go into this next year, wait no, this day, right now, with the commitment to be grateful each day for my life.
I am happy with how things are right now. It’s been a long year but I am grateful to be in a position of content. A position of ease and happiness. I feel proud of what I have achieved this year, the decisions I’ve made and the adventures I’ve had. A new year for me, means accepting what has been, moving forward and being grateful we get another year to live in a way and style that it true to ourselves.
So, 2016, I welcome you with open arms and excitement to the endless possibilities of things to come.
Happy New Year!